Hi, I am Jalex

Welcome to my secret blog.

Here are a few things about me:

• I keep secrets, like this blog for example. I am so secretive that I wish to be in another place where no one knows anything about me.
• I fantasized having a twin brother. We’ll switch places every other day. We’ll talk every time and we’ll share our network of  friends. Of course, we’ll keep it a secret that we have a twin. If there are three of us, the better.
• People share their secrets to me. I think I have this aura where people get comfortable opening themselves. I am a good listener, and I keep secrets well. Some early experiences taught me the value of confidentiality.
• I empathize with people. I have seen some deepest sadness and highest joys. I have experienced helplessness, severe poverty, desperation, depression, as well as extreme happiness. I believe my understanding of things is broad, as I got the first hand experience.
• I don’t usually like to be included in pictures, nor tagged in pictures where I appear. I am sort of anti-social.
• I love keeping diaries, dream journals, write-ups, drafts, scratch, memorabilia…
• I walk briskly – unless someone’s clinging to me that i need to slowdown.
• I get interesting dreams when i sleep – That are worth writing into full novels. Sometimes, I am very amazed the dream characters are speaking beautiful sentences, and/or the plot is very good. I wonder if it’s only my mind that creates them – or my unconscious is traveling somewhere for adventure.
• I used to stalk crushes, offline. I keep a journal where I saw who, when, what time. I skip classes to see where they live. I was that crazy. I can laugh about it now.
• I cyberstalk people. If I’m interested about a person, I’ll dig everything the search engines could give.
• If I like someone, I get obsessed like crazy. It’s like the song, tattooed on my mind.
• I am turned-off with facial moles, just the big ones (I know big is a relative word).  No offense, sorry but it’s just me. They are cancerous, it’s scary.
• Of course, bad breath is a real turn-off too.
• I am attracted to girls with nicely chiseled noses. (Perhaps, media influence)
• I like childish girls. They are fun to be with.
• I think, bangs show the girls’ real beauty. Bangs + how they look in the morning. Girls become prettier during the evening so I don’t believe what I see. Especially when I see them the first time.
• I want to be an assassin. There are just too many evil people in this world and I want to kill them all. It will be my pleasure. Maybe, corrupt politicians will top my lists, along with government and private officials abusive of their powers. Sometimes I want to blame my parents for the morals they instilled me I can’t do it.
• I have read mangas Death Note 1 and 2. Now I am reading Lost + Brain - as they are the same psychological/suspense/intelligence type mangas. I have finished reading all chapters of Naruto and currently watching on every Shippuden episode.
• I used to be bitter, most times. There are even times I wish I could die on the spot. But I believe I am still more fortunate than most people, so I am developing a positive outlook.
• My dream is to have plenty of money so I can give them away. I cannot give what I don’t have.
• I am workaholic. I can work 24 hours straight and sleep all weekends.
• I can stand 3 days without food.
• I love vegetables on the menu, and seafood, and I can cook.
• I can’t drive a tricycle well, I exert too much force on the steering.
• I am confident with my webmaster | wordpress | joomla and control panel skills. I have enough knowledge with photoshop, muvee, vegas, and audacity. I am also not prissy of boring and hard manual labor. I am not jack of all trades, but I am very well rounded and flexible. Work finds me.
• I sometimes wish I can multiply myself. There are just many things I want to do. Kagebunshin no jutsu!
• I am very irritable when I’m under pressure. I hate talking when I’m running for deadlines.
• When I look back at my past writings, they are full of errors. I have only developed my grammar during college.
• I choose not to read novels – i think it is a waste of time. I have read many novels in the past though, but now, I’m so busy at other things.
• I also think facebook games are a waste of time.
• I can’t remember anything that happened when I was 2 years old and younger.
• When I was 3, I was afraid of policemen, and road rollers
• When I was 4, I was afraid of being castrated. They always tease me that they’ll castrate me.
• When I was 5, I was very protective of grandma’s stuff. I hate that other old lady from the neighborhood, that always go to our place and asks for grandma’s “maskada”
• When I was 6, I was seriously wondering how do males get themselves a girlfriend or wife. I was afraid I won’t be able to get a girlfriend or marry someone when I get older because I don’t know how to court or I thought I would be ashamed to court anyone.
• When I was 7, I was afraid proceeding to the next grade level because I heard pupils from higher class do multiplication and division – I don’t know how to divide or multiply numbers yet at that time!
  My father used to buy my exam scores if they are very good. If I don’t get a “very good” rating, I connive with a classmate who gets a “very good”, and change the name in his test paper – then we share the pay money.
• When I was 8, I thought the earth is made of layers of flat lands and seas – where if you reach the edge – you can fall to the layer below.
• At his age, I also learned how to bike. My father taught me. Then I was taught how to steer a motorcycle.
• When I was 9, I really thought robots exist. I see a colorful map of Panay and Region VI, and I thought the villains in TMNT must live somewhere there
• When I was 10, I am a superfan of Dragon Ballz. I use all my allowance to buy cheesecurls with a dragon ballz card freebie. I give the junkfood to my classmates, then I keep the card.
• I learned to drive 4-wheels when I was 12.
• I learned to play chess when I was 15.
• I learned to play the guitar when I was 16.
• I am a proud member of the Iglesia ni Cristo (Church of Christ). I have tried to empty my cup and check the doctrines of other Christian religions – and I am convinced that the INC (1914) is the continuation of the apostatized 1st century Christians, backed by prophecy. The first century Church apostatize (changed it’s name in honor of the empire, and it installed numerous man-made doctrines through councils), that the work of salvation in the Christian era is divided into 3 (Jewish Christians, Gentile Christians, and those from a far (INC 1914)  – This other sheep was mentioned by Jesus to come from a far place (far east, in the islands of the sea), and far time  (ends of the earth). That a shepherd will be used to lead the flock… I enjoy talking about biblical doctrines, and anything philosopical.
• Other things about me, are still secrets. But you can try to anonymously ask me here.

P.S. I may sound like boasting, but I say these things with all due respect for modesty.